Spiritual Leaps

So, here I am again. I think the last time I reported in was last Sunday night? Last Sunday morning's message at church really spoke to my heart. I think our pastor is amazing. I read people's core pretty well I've found, and I really think he's a great guy. I don't find many people like that. I don't know why I sidetrack there, but the topic of the sermon and how he put it really got my attention.

Later last Sunday night, I really had a heart-to-heart with God and I think our dysfunctional relationship may finally be repaired. I mean my dysfunctional relationship with God, and now perhaps, I can repair other areas of my life that are not functioning correctly. I can only see with time. The area that got my attention was that I feel like my wheels are stuck on the ground, and I'll never get off the runway to do great things for God.

Speaking of time, we went to Sunday School today. It was the first time we've been to Sunday School in a very, very long time. I could almost describe the experience last Sunday night as a salvation experience, but I know it wasn't. It was like that point in people's lives (I'll never have the fortune of knowing what it's like) where your relationship with your parents change. I guess the first time most people understand their parents is when they've had children themselves.

My relationship with God has been strained by so many different things. I just want to learn to trust Jesus more and more. I'm glad that we're at a point where I can let go of the past. That has been huge for me, personally. All I can do is take things one day and one decision at a time. I've never been more self-aware and that means I'm totally aware of my need for self-control.

Free Time

I wouldn't say that teaching is kicking my behind, but it is putting an end to what I call "dispensable time." I have time to go out and have fun with the family a bit, but the time I put into endeavors like this one has faded dramatically. I'm sure it will come back in time. I am trying to go to bed early each night. I may have already said that, but it also puts a hamper on things. It's Labor Day, so no school, so I'm checking in with you. I did alot of housekeeping today in the home office side of things. I tried to organize and weed the great big mess that was my giant stack of documents. I've also put a lot of time into the extra bedroom this weekend trying to make sense of things in there as well.